Praise to Hathor!

Praise to Hathor!

Friday, 10 June 2016

Lessons from the Lover

As we move into Domnu's season I felt it necessary to record a summary of the lessons Rhiannon has taught me this season. I feel like I have written the most so far from Her teachings.

Rhiannon opened my eyes to my need to have constant reassurance from my partner due to previous experiences of being made to feel inadequate and small. I need to expand my own self-love to eradicate this clingy need of approval.
- Rhiannon comes swiftly riding

I am filled with passion. I want to do so many things and desperately so! This is why I often feel overwhelmed and even depressed when things aren't moving. This passion, my heart, my ability to love deeply, are all Her gifts! Instead of seeing this passion as a cause of stress and constant yearning, I need to see how fulfilling it can be.
- Rhiannon comes swiftly riding  

Surrender - I need to learn to fully surrender to love without fear. Allow myself to fall in love as many times as I need to without fear of heartbreak or endings. Just surrender to love and let go.
The Naive Princess and the Woman - The love of a child, looking up to a prince in shining armour is not the same kind of love as an empowered woman who is experienced in love. I need to stop trying to recreate the childhood fantasy and embrace the deeper and experienced love that comes with moving on.
Platonic Love - I had been feeling guilty about missing my previous partner, but then Rhiannon showed me this was unnecessary. I was not longing for him as a lover, in fact that was not a consideration at all. I was mising my friend and the memories of the past. Realising that this is what I missed lightened the burden of it in my heart. I still want to let go of this, but the guilt of it is no longer there.
- Her Love Grows: Lessons from Rhiannon

I look better naked(!). Clothing is often made to fit women's natural bodies in a somewhat awkward or constricting way. I realised after moving the bedroom mirror that I quite like my natural body and that it was the restriction of clothes that created an illusion that I did not approve of. I am able to accept my body better simply because I have allowed myself to look at it, in its natural, unhidden form.
- In Her Image

"The Goddess of Love requires us to surrender to Her, to trust that we don't always know what's best, and to go with Her tides. Being a Priestess is about saying 'yes!' to Goddess when She calls. So here it is: I say yes, and I surrender to you Rhiannon!" 
I decided during this Beltane season that I would move on to the Priestess of Rhiannon training after completing this Spiral of the Avalon course. I was afraid of making a mistake in following this impulse, but as soon as I made the decision I felt relieved and that everything was falling into place. It was so obvious, for so long. I just had to be brave. I had to listen to Her and not to myself.
- Gazing into Her Mirror

I spend too much time dwelling in the past or longing for the future. I need to live in Her sensual present, enjoying being alive and what life is doing right now. 
- The Present in Her Presence 

The Present in Her Presence

The season is shifting and Domnu's waters are beginning to roll in waves at my feet. It has ben incredibly warm and I've longed to immerse myself in Her water, and drink the refreshing liquids of Her fruits. This time I do not feel sad to move on from Beltane, as we are keeping the Rhiannon altar up in the bedroom, and I know that my future lies in the Rhiannon Priestess training. So I am in the process of setting up my Domnu altar and preparing for Solstice. 

I feel like I wrote more than usual this month, perhaps as it is my favourite season, or perhaps because as time goes on I am opening up more and more to Her energy. 

Something I realised from this season was a terrible habit I have for holding on to the past and not living in the present. I have always had a problem of letting go of things, and as I get older this is getting more important to do, as my problems seem a bit more important than they were as a child! 

I am deeply nostalgic and sad for the past. It has been a trait of mine for as long as I can remember. I hate the feeling of loss when looking back at old times (which is exemplified these days by the ending of a long-term relationship that fills up many of the past memories now). This feeling makes me long for the future, a greener grass, a new life, a fresh start and the promose of my own home and the freedom of a car. This progresses onto a feeling of discontent as I wait for the future to happen and wish the time away. I am either lingering on the past, or longing for the future to begin. Even on a smaller scale I wish my days away for my next day off work (where I do very little as no on else is home) or to the autumn when I hope to start a new course of study. I hardly ever relish the present.

Amongst other things, this affects my current relationship. Unwantingly I still get sad over my past one. I struggle to let go of things, feelings, memories, anger. My current boyfriend had to point out to me that he is in my present. He is not in my past, and I cannot know that he is in my future. But I do know that he is in my present. I do not value or cherish the present, so how can I expect to be fully involved in this present relationship?

This is another of Rhiannon's lessons.

The present is all we can actually hold. The present is where our sensuality lies, the stimulation of our senses. Rhiannon, the Lover Goddess, is sensuality and the celebration of our bodies, and She is now. Right now. Her gifts of the body, of pleasure, of love, are all happening in the present. We can remember past loves and pleasures, we can anticipate future ones, but we can orgasm, feel, enjoy, and be alive with the present ones. 

When we connect with the Goddess we are making a link with Her in that moment, unifying with our whole selves and the universal spirit of life. We are present in Her presence, and She is always there, just waiting for us to realise that and switch on.